Sunday, May 2, 2010
SURGERY- For the last two weeks I have known that I have had to have my uterus and one ovary removed. That time came on Friday. I was totally fine with the whole thing on many levels that I knew it was the right thing to have done. When things fall into place just the right way there is no doubt in my mind that it is the right thing to be done. I have been blessed with 5 wonderful children who were all a part of Heavenly Fathers plan for me. I feel so blessed to be given these choice spirits. Now a different chapter in my life begins. I mean I knew we were done having kids about 3 1/2 years ago when Clint had a vasectomy done. (I am sure he is so happy with me sharing that. Good thing he rarely reads my blog.) But now it is permanent on my end. Clint has been so supportive. I am really surprised. I normally feel like a burden to him. I didn't want to have him do anything he didn't want to do while I went through this I was planning on having my mom and Monica help me. He wanted to bring me there, be there during the surgery (he even asked if he could be in the operating room and helped the doctor. They said no to that.) AND he even spent the night with me at the hospital. I feel very blessed and cared about by him. I mean I know he loves and cares about me but sometimes I don't think it is as deep as it is. Anyway he was very attentive and caring to me and it was nice to see him show that towards me.
When we got to the hospital on Friday I was fine I was good till they started talking about putting pain meds in my spinal column. I have never really had epidural with my kid because it scared me with the whole spine thing. That was the only thing that I was worried about but they told me they would sedate me first. They put some stuff in my IV before I left Clint he said I left the room with the biggest smile on my face. He asked them if he could have some of that for home. That is all I really remember then I came out of it and met up with Clint again. They put me in a room and I was in and out of it for the next little while. They let us go home. I couldn't wait for that. I don't care how nice a hospital is I hate spending the night there. It makes me so anxious. So now I am home. I am surprised that there is not much pain. I am sore and it feels like something has been removed but other then that I am fine.
SERVICE- I really like to be on the giving end of service. Me giving it to others. I am not comfortable with it being given to me. I had to learn to be able to receive it about 6 years ago when our house burned down. It was a hard lesson for me to learn but I kept telling myself that I would do something for those in need with out a second thought. I love to serve. It is my way of showing how much I love Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. My sweet husband, my mom, sisters, my ward family and my sweet friends have been so caring and loving to me. Weather it be a treat they dropped by, a dinner they made, or a visit, a call, a text, or a Facebook message. I have felt so much love by so many people. The ones I know truly care about me because they want to not because they have too. You know who you are and I am truly blessed to have you in my life.
My week with sickness, surgery & service.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Friday, February 19, 2010
Then of course Katie had to have crazy hair also. I think she was more excited to have it then the girls.
Katie was also excited to go to Eliza's kindergarten class for the Valentine party. This year the school sent home suggestions for the party. They were asking for healthy heart type foods. My children love cheese and crackers so that is what they brought in for their class parties. The kids loved the heart shaped cheese.
Jacob goes to the middle school their times are different. I picked Jacob up early so he wouldn't have to wait for me once his school was out. He too enjoyed Eliza's class party. He was helping keep the class entertained while Eliza's teacher cleaned up. He was so good with the kids. Eliza's teacher said he was welcome back anytime.
Then Saturday started with the girls having to be in different places at the same time. That is hard sometimes but we got it done. Clint helping with a service project. Me giving a hair cut and finish making the girls cute shirts for the next day. To add to all that we had to slaughter our last pig so we would not get a fine from animal control.
This was bacon our pig that we have had for a few months. She weighted 5lbs when we got her. On slaughter day she had gotten to 103lbs.
I will spear you the gross pictures. It was messy but it had to be done. We got about 70lbs of pork. It is in the freezer now. Monica is having a party for two of her kids with pulled pork sandwiches. I am making the pork=).
The pig took a long time to gut it and whatever else they did. While Clint was doing that I was making the cute shirts for the girls.
Then we went out on a date for Valentine's Day. Clint got me some pretty roses. We went to our church stake adult dance. It was cute. We had a lot of friends there. We just hung out and talked. It had been such a busy day I was so tired. I was ready for bed. When we got home we had a nice surprise from the kids. They had made our bed and made really cute cards for us and had them on our bed. It was so sweet.
The next morning I got up early and made my family pink pancakes and bacon for breakfast. (store bought bacon) I always buy my kids a little something for valentine's just to let them know how much I love them. The only thing I regret is that I smelled like bacon the rest of the day. I hate that.
My Jacob I love him so much he is such a good kid. He had to give a talk in church on Valentines He did such a good job. I have so much fun with him. Sometimes I forget I am the mom and I have to discipline. I am the mean parent in our house and I hate it sometimes. Good thing I have pretty good kids so I don't have to go to crazy.
My Hanna (aka the little mean mother) I am so thankful for her in our home. She has such a tender spot in her heart for animals. But she also loves to eat bacon. I also have a lot of fun with Hanna she makes me laugh.
My Ester she is so sweet and the most like me in many ways. She is there to help and care for anyone. When she gets mad watch out. She was so excited for Valentine's Day. She couldn't wait for it to come.
My cute Eliza. She is my little baby. Even though Katie is the baby my Eliza likes to be the baby. She is so sweet and little.
My Katie who is really the baby but don't call her that. "I am a big girl mom". I love the time I get to spend with my Katie while the kids are in school. She is growing up so fast and I have to reminder her not to say the same things the big kids say because it does not sound good coming out of her cute mouth. I also have to remind he to be nice to her mom a lot.
I love Valentine's day so we could express our love to those we love. But I don't just wait for that day. I try to often tell my children how much I love them. I love my husband also very much and am just so thankful for all I have. That was our Valentine's 2010.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Like it says in the Bible man is not meant to be alone. I am so thankful for my husband he is the greatest gift I have been given aside from the Gospel. I know that those who know me hear me complain about my husband and I must apologize for that. He is a good man who loves me despite my many many faults. He is the one I have on my mind all the time. I want to shout to the world that I love him and have loved him for a very long time. As most of you know he was my one and only boyfriend. He was my first kiss and he will always be that. We have had good times along with bad but I see him as my better half and with out him I would be nothing. I am doing this love dare for him. I want him to know I would walk to the ends of the earth for him. (maybe that is what I have to do to be thin) He does not know that I am doing this love dare. When you have a good thing what is wrong with making it better. That is why I have decided to take on this dare.
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
I stopped listening to the news and talk radio because I felt it was negative. I have been praying more trying hard in a lot of ways but I can't seen to dig myself out of this hole I am in and I am scared. Why do we go through things like this? I know it is for me to grow and learn something from it. I keep thinking I have learned but then something else happens and I realize I still have to learn. I want it all to stop because I feel like I can't take much more. Then I remember only the Lord knows how much we could handle. I am in contact with Him a lot through the day I tell Him I want things to be better. I hope I don't lose my hope. I wish all the pain I feel and have in my heart were all physical then I could take some thing to ease it away. When those you love so much are not there for you and do not help you in your time of need it hurts more. I hate emotional pain. In the past I have dealt with in awful ways that I am tyring not to do. I know this blog entry must sound so down and I am sorry for that. I am very thankful for my friends who help me feel loved and cared about. They are one reason I know Heavenly Father hears me. I am just waiting for my lesson to be over. So I could look back and laugh at the way things were. I know that everything is done in dew time. I am just ready for it to be time.
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Erin Bentley Photography
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
My Fruit Salad
Strawberry (Katie), Pineapple (Eliza), Grapes (Ester),
Watermelon (Hanna) & Banana (Jacob)
Our ward party was so fun. I loved seeing all of my primary kids dressed up.
Some of my primary kids. I love them all.Clint came home to get Jacob late that night so he could go hunt with him the next day which was Halloween. I knew I was going to be alone with the girls on Halloween so I made plans with my good friend Jenny Powell and went to her house for dinner and then we took the kids trick or treating.
Hanna and Audrey
Hyman & Powell Girls
She was kind of bitter that night.
My pretty sweet watermelon
After we went Trick or Treating we went with the Powell's to a haunted house. A family in our stake put it on every year. It was a lot of fun. There were a lot of friends there. It was spooky. I am so thankful for my friends and the fun we have together.
Clint and Jacob had some good bonding time together hunting.
Clint got his deer.
He was so happy.
He looks so handsome.
Jacob was happy also.
He is so cute.
Just before the gutting.
It was a good weekend Clint and Jacob had fun and got their deer. The girls and I had fun with family, our ward and friends. It was a good Halloween, haunted house and hunt.
After the bath we tried to feed her with a baby bottle and kept her wrapped in a towel so she would stay warm. It was a good effort but was not meant to be. She died during the night. It was a learning experience. The kid said so many prayers for the pig. They knew she was cared for before she died and was comfortable. They understood it was not meant to live.
Saturday, October 31, 2009
President Thomas S. Monson
Jacob tried to do a pumpkin where the mouth spelled out SMILE but he kind of messed up so his just had a big mouth. It still looks cool.
Jacob's Big mouth Pumpkin
Hanna of course could not do one without it being a cat.
Hanna's Cat Pumpkin
Ester was going to do a CTR pumpkin but she said it looked to hard. So she just wanted a simple carve that she drew up.
Pigs are a big thing in our family lately. We have gotten them for pets. That is what Eliza and Katie wanted their pumpkins to look like.
Eliza & Katie's Piggy Pumpkins
Usually I am the one to help the kid do theirs and I don't really do one. Clint helped them this year and I got to do mine. They lasted the first night then then they started to rot. It is sad they don't last longer. Any way pumpkin carving is always Halloween FUN.